Published On: Wed, May 12th, 2021

Ruth Langsford details how returning to work helped while she grieved her late sister Julia

Ruth Langsford has detailed how returning to work helped her while she grieved her late sister Julia, who tragically took her own life in 2019.

In June 2019, Ruth’s sister Julia Johnson, 62, who had battled depression for years, was found dead by her husband Paul at their home in Lingfield, Surrey in June 2019. 

Speaking on Wednesday’s edition of Loose Women, the TV presenter, 61, reflected on how going to work gave her ‘something to get up for in the morning’ because otherwise she would be left crying at home.

‘I needed something to get up for in the morning’: Ruth Langsford detailed on Wednesday’s Loose Women how returning to work helped while she grieved her late sister Julia

She said: ‘When my sister died, I actually needed to get back to work. I wouldn’t say I looked forward to it but I needed that structure back in my life.

‘I needed something to get up for in the morning and also that I could shut off the grief for a bit and have a cry in the shower and go, ‘Come on, pull yourself together, work now.’

‘I needed that to take myself away from the grief, actually. And it’s interesting, people’s reaction as well to watching you – “Is she alright? Is she going to cry?” Especially a show like this, we laugh a lot.

‘And it’s strange, that first time you do anything where you want to laugh or you’re required to laugh, where you’re required to look like you’re having fun, there’s almost a guilty feeling. Like, should I be enjoying my life again so soon?’

Loss: In June 2019, Ruth's sister Julia Johnson, 62, who had battled depression for years, was found dead by her husband Paul at their home in Lingfield, Surrey in June 2019

Loss: In June 2019, Ruth’s sister Julia Johnson, 62, who had battled depression for years, was found dead by her husband Paul at their home in Lingfield, Surrey in June 2019

Struggle: Ruth explained, 'When my sister died, I actually needed to get back to work. I wouldn't say I looked forward to it but I needed that structure back in my life'

Struggle: Ruth explained, ‘When my sister died, I actually needed to get back to work. I wouldn’t say I looked forward to it but I needed that structure back in my life’

Coleen Nolan agreed with Ruth, saying she did the same when she lost her sister Bernie and her mum Maureen.

She said: ‘Like you, there was a part of my that needed to get back, I know we’re having a laugh but I still really miss my mum, I miss my sister.’

Janet Street-Porter also shared her support of Ruth, saying: ‘I completely understood why you came back, it was one of the few routines you could come back to that was a bit of life that was normal.’

Ruth then replied: ‘I wondered what else do I do, do I just stay at home crying?’ 

Upset: Ruth added that if she didn't come in she would have just been left crying at home so she needed to 'take myself away from the grief'

Upset: Ruth added that if she didn’t come in she would have just been left crying at home so she needed to ‘take myself away from the grief’

At the time of her sister’s death, the ITV host told viewers her sister had died ‘after a long illness’, with an inquest later ruling she had died by suicide. 

It was Ruth’s husband Eamonn Holmes who encouraged her to go back to work in memory of Julia, after she admitted she had ‘no motivation or desire’ to be in the public eye. 

After a month of ‘crying, screaming and sobbing’, Ruth said Eamonn told her she had ‘so much to live for.’ 

Speaking to Best Magazine in July last year, the Loose Women star admitted: ‘It seemed wrong to be cheery on screen, when, inside, my heart was breaking.

Passing: At the time of her sister's death, the ITV host told viewers her sister had died 'after a long illness', with an inquest later ruling she had died by suicide

Passing: At the time of her sister’s death, the ITV host told viewers her sister had died ‘after a long illness’, with an inquest later ruling she had died by suicide

‘Eamonn pointed out that he was, in effect, losing not one, but two of the most precious people in his life – Julia and me. He showed me how I had so much to live for in Julia’s memory – and beyond. 

‘He pleaded with me not to let it win, by ruining everything I had achieved – and still had to celebrate.’

Ruth took a week off her regular presenting duties with Eamonn on This Morning immediately after Julia’s death. 

Two months later she left the This Morning studio in tears unable to continue with a phone-in on anxiety and depression.

Support: It was Ruth's husband Eamonn Holmes who encouraged her to go back to work in memory of Julia, after she admitted she had 'no motivation or desire' to be in the public eye

Support: It was Ruth’s husband Eamonn Holmes who encouraged her to go back to work in memory of Julia, after she admitted she had ‘no motivation or desire’ to be in the public eye

Speaking to psychologist Emma Kenny on This Morning in February last year, Ruth spoke in public about her sister’s suicide for the first time, explaining: ‘This happened in my family. I remember my shock at that. It’s the questions it leaves the families’.

She continued with a list of a list of questions family members may have: ‘I should have gone round. I should have phoned. I was going to go round. 

‘I was going to phone. Maybe I should have stayed longer,’ she said.

She added: ‘You are left with the ‘what ifs’. It’s her family now that I think will need so much help.’   

Sharing a photo alongside Julia in June last year, Ruth told her Instagram followers at the time of her sister’s tragic death: ‘My lovely Sis Julia has sadly died after a very long illness. My heart is completely broken.’

‘She was the kindest and most gentle soul and I will miss her forever. As I am sure you will appreciate I need to take time to grieve with my family. ‘Thank you for your understanding.’

If you have been affected by this story, you can call the Samaritans on 116 123 or visit www.samaritans.org.

Back on screens: Ruth explained: 'Eamonn pointed out that he was, in effect, losing not one, but two of the most precious people in his life'

Back on screens: Ruth explained: ‘Eamonn pointed out that he was, in effect, losing not one, but two of the most precious people in his life’

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